Forever my Kaeden baby

I am so proud of my Kaeden baby today. Yes, I called him a baby even though he will be 3 years old in March. He will forever be my Kaeden baby.

He did so great for physical therapy. He was able to lift his head and maintain excellent head control while resting his belly on a therapy ball. It's moments like those that bring tears to my eyes. He's trying so hard! No one will ever be able to say he doesn't give 110%.
He does have days when he does not cooperate for therapies but he is a 2 year old. I wouldn't expect a typical kid to always cooperate.

Today I caught Kade watching me a lot. You know that feeling you get when someone is staring at you? I would turn to look and his big blue eyes would be fixated on me. He would follow up with a huge grin. My heart melted each time. He can't say "I love you" but that look, that sweet innocent look, says it all for him.
I know this is going to sound odd but I couldn't imagine Kade being any way other than the way he is. I used to have dreams of him talking clearly or running while he played. Not anymore. I love him just the way he is. He is not physically perfect but his soul, his prescence, his everything else, is perfect. Why would I ever want anything less?

Xavier was in a good mood today. I think I only had to tell him "no" a few times rather than the usual 50 + times. He didn't like the heavy pj's I put on him today. He only seemed annoyed for a bit before running off to play with toys. Maybe even he realized how cold it was outside. The wind chill's dropped to -20. I had the heat inside cranked to high but it was still a bit chilly in here.
NOAA weather reported the cold temperatures to be lowest this area has experienced in decades!

I left my house for an hour to watch a belly dancing class. My husband said Xavier clung to him the whole time. It makes me so happy to know Xavier is getting to spend time with his daddy again. He's getting to the age where he wants/needs male influence. It's ok, I knew the day would come when Mommy wouldn't be all that she used to be. I still have Kaeden. I don't think he will ever outgrow his preference for me.

Xavier still has moments with me, although they happen less frequently as time goes on. If I lay on the floor that increases my chances of getting some snuggle time with him. He'll run up to me, a slobbery toy in one hand, then he'll kneel down to place his head on my chest for a brief moment. It seems only yesterday I was rocking him to sleep when he was a newborn. I do miss holding him like that.

If I had to give a titles to my boys Kade would be the Snuggler and Xavier would be the Protector. No one messes with his Mama or his brother. When my husband rough houses with me Xavier will step in between us and yell at my husband. If Kaeden cries and Xavier doesn't think I've noticed he will run to get me. Even if I did hear Kade I make sure I thank Xavier. He has a subtle sweetness about him.

It's almost bed time for me now. Good nite.