WTB: More patience

My internet has been crazy for the past month. I apologize for not blogging as much but it's become almost impossible to stay on the 'net for more than 10 minutes at a time. I've contacted Comcast and our modem will be replaced soon.

Kaeden had a great speech therapy session today. There were a lot of vowel sounds. He was also responding to questions with "yea" and "no". The therapist brought along a remote controlled dog. She placed the dog on Kade's lap and he loved it! He would pet the dogs ear and even seemed visibly upset when she took the dog away once.
I wish we could afford to buy a real dog for him. But our rent would be $40 a month more, plus there would be vet bills.

Xavier has really been something else today. He was in timeout twice for not listening to me when I told him "no." He was acting out the most during Kade's therapy. I know he gets jealous of all the attention Kade gets during the hour. We've tried to include Xavier but it seems to fuel his desire to be the center of attention. It actually seems to make his behaviour worse instead of better.
I'm not entirely sure what I'm going to do about this problem.

I'm also frustrated by my boys hatred of clothes. They both try their hardest to ruin their outfits. Kade repeatedly pulled out his feeding tube to let formula drip on his shirt. When I asked if he wanted his shirt off he smiled. Then he shrieked with happiness once it was taken off. Xavier still moves his diaper so he can pee on his clothes. If I acutally redressed them each time their clothes were soiled I'm guessing I would have about 1 load of laundry, if not more, of just baby clothes!

Some days I'm not sure where I get all of my patience. Just when I feel like cracking I still find myself talking calmly to the kids.